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After Divorce

Two divorces and still alive!!!

When I knew that I was headed for a second divorce, I was devastated. How did this happen again. Wasn't he the one? I did not want to live through this again!!!

Three years after my second divorce, I am still alive and pulling my life together again. I was only 23 when I married for the first time, and 27 when that divorce ended. When I delayed marriage for 18 years and married what I thought was a nice quiet name, I knew that this was it. Well...long story short, this marriage also ended in a divorce. Unfortunately, for all parties involved, I held on to this relationship past its expiration date and stated in the relationship for 13 years.

Here I am at 59 with two failed marriages and I have made a decision to live again. Believe me this decision and state of mind did not happen over night. It took three years to get through the maze of confusion and grief. Since I have lost family members, I clearly can identify the signs of grief: disbelief, anger, hurt, etc...These are the same signs of grief when a relationship ends. During the last three years, I have wanted to speed up the stages of grief just to get through it and have it over. Well, I know too well that time heals all. One of the first signs that I was making it through the stages is that I felt the hurt and I still wanted to live. One of the best outcomes were decisions to stay in my home and renovate it. A pleasant surprise was that I decided to start cooking healthy foods. For Christmas, I cooked and invited two friends over for dinner. I also purchased my first kitchenaid and use my food processor for the first time. What a joy. My life starts anew.

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