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Letting Go and Moving Forward

For too many years, I tried to pleased everyone and finally lost sight of me. I chased dreams that had only been words whispered from my father and yet I took them on as my primary mission in life.  I only lost all chasing a PhD.  When I finally realized that  what was meant for me would catch up with me, I cried.

Through the decades that passed, I only dreamed of one time accomplishing this dream so at last I would have time to spend with art.  As a child, I lost to draw but soon realized that I must accomplished what my father said I had to do.  I must go to college.  Indeed I went to  college I stayed for forty years.  In the mean time, I purchased paint, collected art instructions books, tapes and DVD's and only hoped that one that, I could do the art.

As I approach year 60 of my life, I have stopped trying to please people and strop chasing dreams.  Although these dreams have not died, I realized that what is meant for you will come and that I no only had to chase them. This week, I made a decision to live or start living.  I can breathe, I can relax and I can enjoy life.  I will no longer look to the right  or to the left.  I will forge ahead and embrace this life.  What this does mean is that I will still make some mistakes along the way.  But I will live, I will hope and I will dream.  In doing all of this, my Father in heaven will give me the desires of my heart and the dreams will come to me.

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