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Forgiveness and Friends

Almost 30 years ago, I fell in love with a young man and survived an extremely hard relationship with him. Due to time, harsh words and misunderstandings, we ended the relationship and went our separate ways. Over the years, I have wondered about him and focused not so much on the bad times, but the journey.

Although, he chose someone else, I always wondered why. Just why? There was love...but still he chose someone else. When he informed me that he would marry another, I became angry and said some awful things. Yes, I was mean. Basicallly, I told him that I wished the marriage would end and that he would later find out that I loved him more. Well that did not happen. His marriage did end, but I never knew if he would ever found out that I loved him more. Time passed and I decided last year to forgive all. I forgave all of my past relationships and I forgave me. I decided to focus on the good times I shared with each relationship. Just the good times. Today, I heard from this man. Out of the blue he called. And my heart is still beating fast and I am blushing. Forgiveness is good for the soul.

A few months ago this man tracked me down and we exchanged harsh words and said goodbye. I will no longer wonder "what if". Keep old doors closed.

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