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Letting Go

Tonight, I finally let go of a baby I never held or knew was forming in my body. For three decades I kept the hospital stationery and the letter written to the State Medical Board complaining about a doctor who took away any last chance I had to have a child. All was lost...my baby, any future chances of a giving birth and a marriage.

Tonight, ohnmy God, I forgave and let go. I want to live in the here and now...not the past. Why did it take so long to simply let go. The god news is that I have and I will live.

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