A Thankful Woman's Journey...

After writing three posts on relationships...yes, parts, I, II! And III, I went to the piano and played a soothing song, There is nothing more important in my life during these periods than music and art. Art was discovered today in every yellow to deep red leaf on trees in my neighborhood. There was also something very magical about my figures playing a slow sweet song which penetrated my heart and soul. When I am in that funky stage of a relationship headed south, I turn to music. I guarantee, it will lift you and heal a broken wounded heart.

I absolutely hate when the gay, inspiring, light and airy phase of a relationship could soon come to an end. The question for me at this point is this...were you living in a fairy tale or were these feelings shared by the other person? Here is my answer...I know I did not share these feelings on a solo journey. What happened? Who is running or has someone just woke up. Hopefully these are not just red flags. What do you think? Here are my choices: (1) Move on ad don't be a fool; (2) Don't act like a silly school girl; (3) Enjoy the journey, at least you have feelings; last but not least (4) Wait it out, just enjoy and cherish this time. Today, I have opted for what is behind door number four. Why? When things don't work out according to my time table, my usual pattern is to run for the hills. Signing off for now.

What has changed in relationships over the past several decades? Nothing. Males and females are connected by nature and are as different as our aligning planets. Men run from commitment and females have the tendency to nurture relationships. There are, however, exceptions. Whenever a woman has been hurt and deeply emotionally burned from a relationship, she, too , will run. With all the running and game playing, who takes time to develop meaningful relationships? I am unsure at this point and don't have the answers. Four months ago, I was willing to welcome someone into my life. Unfortunately, he too is/was a disappointment. Yes, there were signs. Sign one, he was seeing someone else. Sign two, he was self absolved in his past and present accomplishments. Sign three, his calls came few and far between. Sign four, I saw all of the signs. Conclusion, I am getting out. Only a miracle will make me stay.

I met a man with a heart of gold. For three months we shared each others company and conversations. Then the calls came fewer and fewer apart. When they did come, he was always returning calls. Since he was always enroute to some location, the calls were always rushed. When I first noticed this oh familiar pattern of a man running, immediately, I said he is not different. The patterns intensified and I said i off. I was told to stay and change my pattern of running. I stayed and played nice. Nice is over and common sense had been engaged. If you want me, treat me like a queen. Why? You are treated like a king. If for some reason you can't , say goodbye. My orders to stay the course have expired. I am not sad. This man allowed me to open up and share. Could he have been a way station or merely placed in my life to warm my heart? Anyway, I don't regret the time we spent together. If for some reason my judgement is not off. it's solid. If he stays, h...

What I experienced back in the mid 1980's to build my Mary Kay business never rested well with my spirit. This experienced occurred when I was first recruited into the business by a consultant who used the "warm chatter" technique to invite me to a Mary Kay function. No matter how hard I tried to follow that path, I knew that this was not God's path for me. I always spoke positively about MK's products and the visual impact of the skin care line. Twenty-eight years later, I feel the same about the products, and I am still concerned about the company's recruiting and multi- level marketing strategy. As with some businesses, I joined to make "more" money, there were too many things which I witnessed behind the scenes that I could not and would not do. One business was real estate. When the company's owner told me that I just wasn't "dogmatic" enough for the company, we mutually agreed that it was time for me to leave. This...